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Feeling bad about feeling bad about your body

Reviewed by Stephanie Steinman, PhD, CSAC


Anytime I’m asked to give a reading from my memoir, “Fat Girl, Skinny,” I pick the same chapter. It’s about living as a fat person and the ridiculous things we do to our bodies in the endless pursuit of thinness. When I first started sharing the book in 2011 and for years afterward, this excerpt always got a hearty laugh from the crowd.

Then I read the same chapter in 2020 to a group of college students, and it felt different. They weren’t laughing—and the more uncomfortable they grew, the worse I felt. That’s when I realized that how we talk about weight and our bodies has really changed in the last decade.

What I felt in that moment wasn’t acceptance. It wasn’t affirmation. It was shame. In many ways, this was the progress I’d dreamed of: a roomful of young people not laughing at my body. Yet I felt guilty for voicing the disappointment I sometimes felt in myself, like I’d been outed as a traitor to the body positivity movement.

Diet culture hasn’t gone away since my memoir was published, but it has evolved—and it’s still doing a number on many people’s self-esteem. How can we learn to push back against the toxic messaging of the thin ideal, and how do we move toward building a more inclusive space for every kind of body?

Diet culture hides in plain sight

In the past, “diet culture” acted as an umbrella term for outdated values about food and health. But today it’s come to refer to a set of social expectations that dictates how people should eat, feel, and look.1 The pressure to diet to achieve this ideal body can lead to eating disorders.2

Bianca (name has been changed), a doctoral student in her 30s, has lived with anorexia since her early teens. She has seen diet culture change in her lifetime, but she confirms that the message of thinness as the goal hasn’t gone anywhere. In fact, she thinks it’s been amplified in new ways.

“Celebrity” endorsements now extend to anyone. “A lot of influencers are talking about things like intermittent fasting and these ‘healthy’ alternatives,” Bianca says. “I see it a lot around reality television and the shakes and supplements the cast members sell.” Gone are the days of only mega-celebrities hawking products—on social media, anyone with a platform can push a product or a message.

Hashtags promote unhealthy ideals. Bianca says social media broadly promotes anorexic bodies and other eating disorders, also often disguised as wellness. Similar to the “thigh gap” phenomenon, these impossible body standards seep their way into our culture—especially teen culture—and are promoted using hashtags.3 Access to these images can easily trigger her back into her eating disorder, Bianca says: “It all depends on how I’m feeling in that moment.”

Diet culture often masquerades as wellness. According to therapist Judith Matz, LCSW, one of the ways we see diet culture show up is in wellness culture. “People who say, ‘I’m not dieting, it’s a lifestyle; I’m not dieting, it’s my wellness plan,’ are often focused on the end goal of losing weight,” says Matz. This new way of talking about thinness is still doing the work of diet culture, creating an environment in which many of us believe that people with higher BMIs are unhealthy, a strain on the medical system, and unable to control themselves around food.4

Pros and cons of the body positivity movement

Since the 1960s, there has been pushback against diet culture in the form of movements like Health at Every Size (HAES), body positivity, and the National Association to Advance Fat Acceptance (NAAFA). These groups were badly needed and have done a lot of good, but they also face challenges of their own.

Some worry the body positivity movement is becoming toxic itself, and that it promotes the notion that if you’re not a certain size, you shouldn’t be allowed to feel at odds with your body.5 Then there’s the idea that if you do express a desire to lose weight, you’re endorsing the unhealthy ideals of diet culture. No wonder some of us feel caught in the middle.

Matz acknowledges that the push toward body positivity has the potential to cause guilt in people who still feel badly about their shape or size. If a person in your life shares negative emotions connected with their appearance or body, have compassion. Because body shaming is so embedded in our culture, Matz explains, there aren’t a lot of safe spaces where we can say, “I’m really struggling. I feel like nobody’s going to care for me if my body stays at this size.” This is a real feeling deserving of attention, says Matz.

“It’s important for us to create safe spaces for people to talk about their struggles,” she says. “I’m a big fan of groups for this reason. If we don’t talk about our shame, it gets bigger.” Some therapists host groups focused on this topic, and there are a number of online options as well. One example is Liberating Jasper, which offers online support groups designed to help people rebuild their relationships to food and their bodies.

How do messages about dieting affect self-esteem?

The way we feel about our bodies and respond to diet culture can be tied to our self-esteem, which Matz says is often rooted in childhood.

If you grow up hearing comments about your weight or how much you eat, it can lower your self-esteem and leave you more vulnerable to harmful dieting messages and anti-fat bias. “A child in this environment learns their worth is based on their physical appearance,” says Matz. This can also happen if a parent focuses on their own weight, which sends the same message.

In terms of healthy body image, the ideal upbringing isn’t focused on the body at all. “There aren’t scales in the bathrooms, dieting and restricting food isn’t present, and the central message is that people come in all shapes and sizes,” Matz says.

Being raised in a body-positive home doesn’t mean you’ll never get caught up in diet culture, she adds, but you may be able to resist it better.

Low self-esteem and eating disorders in young people

Having healthy self-esteem acts as a protective factor against many mental health issues, including eating disorders. Research indicates that people with low self-esteem are more at risk of developing an eating disorder.6

Building up our self-esteem can take some time. While we may lay the foundation for how we feel about ourselves in childhood, studies show that self-esteem peaks between the ages of 50 and 60.7 This means many of us carry a diminished sense of self for much of our lives.

Unsurprisingly, technology plays a key role in self-esteem. Children are already in a vulnerable position when it comes to self-worth, and today they’re using their phones more and starting earlier.8 As a result, diet culture messaging is making its way to kids’ screens and affecting how they feel about themselves. For parents, creating a supportive and weight-neutral environment like the one Matz describes above can help combat some of these messages.

If you think you or your child may have an eating disorder, call the National Alliance for Eating Disorders helpline at 866-662-1235 (Monday through Friday, 9 a.m. to 7 p.m. EST). If you need help right away, call 988 to reach the 988 Lifeline or text “NEDA” to the Crisis Text Line at 741741 (both resources available 24/7). You can also reach out to a therapist for support.

Finding the right therapist

Therapy can be a great way to start shedding problematic beliefs, rebuilding our relationship with our bodies, and increasing our self-esteem. But remember, says Matz: “Therapists are people, too. They are also products of internalized diet culture.”

For this reason, she suggests the following guidelines as you look for professional support.

Find a therapist who has examined their own attitudes toward dieting, food, and weight. If a clinician hasn’t explored their own implicit bias and starts working with a client who wants to lose weight, they may show a willingness to jump on board with helping the client do that, despite the high rates of diet failure.9 To increase their own awareness, Matz suggests that therapists take an implicit bias test, which looks at the unconscious stereotypes we all hold about weight, race, gender, sexuality, and other aspects of identity.10

Find a therapist who specializes in a weight-neutral approach. A therapist who’s familiar with a weight-neutral approach is best positioned to offer support around body image and health, says Matz. This approach, which focuses on positive, sustainable behaviors rather than weight loss and BMI, has been shown to improve health without the goal of weight loss.11 It often involves attuned eating or intuitive eating, which encourages paying attention to physiological cues and listening to your body.12

The future is weight-neutral

Diet culture and body positivity can fight it out over the messaging, but Matz says the real victory will come when we have respect for all bodies—including our own.

Bianca takes this approach in her anorexia treatment, which includes regular sessions with a therapist who specializes in eating disorders. “There is no more ‘good’ or ‘bad’ food,” she says. She’s listening to her body and treating it kindly, and she has been in recovery for three years.

Back in 2011, I wrote my memoir for the 17-year-old version of myself: the one people snickered at, who could never shop for clothes in a regular store, and who cried herself to sleep because she never felt she belonged. I wanted that girl to feel seen and acknowledged.

Weight neutrality allows that to happen in a more authentic way. That girl is not her body. She is not her weight loss or gain. She’s just a human being moving through the world—and had I recognized her earlier, she might have been the hero of my story.

About the author

Amye Archer, MFA, is a senior writer at She is the author of “Fat Girl, Skinny” and the coeditor of “If I Don’t Make It, I Love You: Survivors in the Aftermath of School Shootings,” and her work has appeared in Creative Nonfiction magazine, Longreads, Brevity, and more. Her podcast, “Gen X, This Is Why,” reexamines media from the ’70s and ’80s. She holds a Master of Fine Arts in creative nonfiction and lives with her husband, twin daughters, and various pets in Pennsylvania.

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